Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Bored

It's been awhile again since I've written in this. I actually forgot about it cause I've been busy or just haven't wanted to remember, I don't know which. Today I was sitting here waiting for my husband to come home for lunch and 2 hours later he hasn't come, and I don't know what clicked to make me remember or decided to write. Maybe I needed something to vent on. I'm bored, I sit here all week waiting for him to come home or something and now I'm just getting bored. I ran out of books that I brought and the TV and facebook are actually getting old. Today he had some rehearsal that I didn't know about and he was supposed to come home for lunch and then take me back with him so I could have a meeting with one of the ranking officers. So apparently he didn't know about this rehearsal either. I'm not really making much sense but oh well. But anyway, I went over to a friends after I had been sitting here, we are taking care of her and her husbands animals while they are home for leave and she needed so show me some things, but she wasn't home. So here I came walking back to boredom again. Don't get me wrong we have been having fun, and it's so wonderful to see him everyday and kiss him everyday, but I actually miss working. I may have mentioned this before, but I have had a job ever since I was 15 and always wanted a husband that could support me so I didn't have to work. But there is nothing to do. If I had some horses or even just a dog to keep me busy I wouldn't mind. It was nice to sit around for a little while but now I'm just bored. It would be different if we were home, I have my friends, places that I could go ride, people to see, places to go. But here I don't know very many people yet, especially wives, and it's just not the same. I mean I knew it wouldn't be, but I thought it would be different in a different way. I'm sure if I didn't have some many bills to pay and we had a little more money we would be doing a little more traveling and such, and I wouldn't be like this, but home sickness is kicking in and I would love something to do. Leave is coming up for company and like I said we are taking care of a friends animals and then I also email a lady about walking and playing with her dogs and cats while she is away too. It's a little extra cash and I will have something to do for a couple of weeks. I thought about volunteering at the red cross or something, but when the lady came in and spoke at the FRG meeting it seemed lame. Yes I know Red Cross does some wonderful things, but the volunteering thing seems a little shitty. But maybe I should try it before I make those assumptions. I'm going to try and get a part-time job here in a month or so, so that should help with my boredom too.
So another thing that I'm trying to figure out is how I'm going to get my cat over here. We really don't have the money for me to go home and pick him up, I thought maybe a cargo plane and that makes me nervous. My parents were suppose to come and visit this fall but now they can't so having them bring him wont work. I'm trying to wait till after my husband deploys to bring him over. He is allergic to cats. And why you ask, why am I bringing him here? My husband wanted him in the first place and now I'm attached to the damn adorable thing and can't bring myself to get rid of him. This is going to sound crazy cat lady like, but the cat loves me, he adjust to all my moving like no other cat I've seen and he's like a puppy. Plus I had to get rid of my dog a couple years back and I put down my horse, the love of my life, almost 2 years ago. The cat is the only animal I have left. It's an emotional attachment issue. And I just miss him! So any advice anyone can offer me to get him here I will gladly take it. Thank you..
Otherwise I believe this is all for now. I will try to be more regular on writting in this. It actually may help me. Thanks for reading

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