Finally...

Well today my husband and I bought my plane ticket to Europe! I leave tomorrow.. I can't believe it's finally happening. I'm so excited, and really nervous at the same time!! My stomach has been in knots most of the day. Since the ticket was bought some of those knots have loosened up quite a bit, but they are still there. Now my problem is packing. I want to know how I fit everything in my my bags moving back here but I can't seem to get everything in now. So I will be unpacking and reorganizing my bags again to see if I can finagle just a little bit more room. That's all I need, just a little bit more room. And as soon as I do have a little bit more room I will probably need a little bit more. That's just how it works. My husband also informed me he may not be able to meet me at the airport to pick me up. I'm like oh great, now I have load my 2 heavy ass suitcases onto a train with an opening of about 3 inches all by myself! Holy hell, that is going to be difficult. I did it before. The loading isn't as big of a deal as unloading. Cause once I get to our town it like the subway in Chicago or New York, they give you just enough time to get your self off. So looks like I'm going to be throwing my suit cases out the door and leaping off the train. I know I'm exaggerating, but that's a pretty close description of what might happen. I really hope he can make. One so I can jump into his arms, and two help with my luggage. :) But god, I just can't believe I'm finally going. Still in shock I guess. Alright my break time is over. I must go finish packing and cleaning up my room. Good times!!!

Why is it so hard..

Well, so I made a blog account with milblogging.com. Seems so easy, but you know, claiming the stupid blog is really confusing for me. I'm not to great with technology, I mean I can get my way around and figure things out. Well, trying to claim this stupid blog is terrible. I don't understand the instructions. I don't know why it's so hard, but the directions for it are very vague I what the hell they are talking about. So if anybody could give me some insight and help into how to do it would be great. If not I'll probably ask my dad. And if you have read my blog before, granted this is only the third one, but I did get google back as my homepage. Easy as pie! So silly.

Now next I'm my list.. I can't wait till Tuesday, well yes I can, because leaving my family and friends is going to be really hard. I actually can't wait till Wednesday. Seeing my husband is going to be great. I will probably cry, cause I cry. I hate to cry but I wear my heart on my sleeve, or so I've been told. I know the house isn't going to be much, but it's my first house that's somewhat ours. I know it sounds silly, after about the 3rd time I will be singing a different tune, but I have a little lawn to mow. Not my first lawn to mow, but the first of my own. i told my hubby he better mow the lawn every time before he leaves for deployment, get his fill so he doesn't miss it. He argued with me, in a loving way, but then I told him he's going to be doing the dishes a lot when I first get there cause we will only have 2 plates and a pot until our stuff arrives. And you will never guess, he agreed. I said did you hear what I said, that you are going to be doing the dishes every night and he said yep. I was like ok you argue with the "man" type thing to do and don't argue with washing the dishes. Whatever.. I guess my man is... different. But I love him. Any how I've gotta finally start my day I think. I'm just not sure what my day holds for me.

I hate it when...

I really hate it when different websites trick you into making there web search thing your homepage. And now I can't get my old one back.. but then again I'm really tired and I will try again tomorrow. That is just really annoying to me. But I guess I was the gullible one and can't blame them in a way for being able to trick me...

On a brighter note, we got our housing. I will be leaving for Europe next week.. Thank god. I was just so worried and upset that I wouldn't get to spend anytime with my husband before he left for deployment. Now I don't have to worry I will have a glorious 2 1/2 months with him. It's an amazing feeling. I'm scared for the move and being so far away from home, but that is the sacrifice I had to make to as a wife to be with my husband. And the greatest thing is, is he is so excited his current roommates and friends are feeding off his excitement and are well excited as well. I have met a few of them and think they are great men and I am looking forward to seeing them. And another really great thing is some one I know from my hometown is also stationed where my husband is and he is looking forward to a familiar face and someone to have fun with. So all in all I really think this was a great decision and I'm looking forward to my new adventures.

My first blog..

I never thought that I would open a blog. I never thought I would be this frustrated and it seems the only way to let it out any more is to share my experience and hope that there is someone out there that will relate. Some one that is going through something similar and be able to tell why it is the the way it is. I can't seem to get a straight answer on that. Why? Why, is a question that I can't seem to get an answer too. I guess I should state why I'm asking why.
My husband is in the military. If you are involved with the Military, you can guess some of my frustrations. My husband and I got married in December 2009, I have only seem my husband for 5 physical days of our marriage. The whole plan was for me to move where he is based. Which all I'm going to say is in Europe. I was excited. First, I would get to spend everyday with my husband until he deploys for Iraq, which is in 2 months. Second, I would get to travel Europe for 3 years. Well from what someone was saying I would have been able to be there in 2 weeks of us getting married. I thought OK maybe not 2 weeks but maybe a month. I got everything I needed to do, done, I quit my job and moved back to my parents to wait. Yeah, I'm still at my parents. I'm waiting for housing. Apparently there is just so many people looking for housing that I've been sitting around waiting for almost 3 month. Basically we can't get any answers and today we finally set a date to where if I'm not there by then I'm not going to stay just to visit. That date is just over a month away. I am crossing my fingers that a house comes through soon.. Like in a week soon, which I know isn't going to happen and I've almost given up hoping for something. I love my husband so much, I respect everything he and all those men and women are doing for our country. I will support my husband in this till I die, but is it really too much to ask to be able to spend some time with my husband? Is is too much to ask to let us spend a month together. I truly believe if it weren't for the wives and families, these soldiers wouldn't be able to do what they do. I know all the quotes about this. You know the ones.. "if the army wanted to you have a wife and kids they would have issued you one" and "hurry up and wait". But I'm not that patient and I don't believe in the first one. So here I am, waiting. I just can't seem to fathom not seeing my husband off on the day he leaves for deployment. I just can't seem myself here while he's getting on that plane without me there to tell him that I believe in him and come home to me. I know I sound slightly cheesy and young, but that's I am. I knew what I was getting into when I married him, I knew it was a huge sacrifice on my emotions and what I thought marriage was supposed to be like. I just don't think I prepared myself well enough. So it's going to take me a while longer to get over it. I know I will, I just want to wallow in my self pity for a bit.
So in conclusion, can anyone answer me why it's like this? Why can't we get the answers we need, why can't I be with my husband? And off the other why's I can't finding wording for? Well I know not all my post will be like this, but thank you for reading this..