My first blog..

I never thought that I would open a blog. I never thought I would be this frustrated and it seems the only way to let it out any more is to share my experience and hope that there is someone out there that will relate. Some one that is going through something similar and be able to tell why it is the the way it is. I can't seem to get a straight answer on that. Why? Why, is a question that I can't seem to get an answer too. I guess I should state why I'm asking why.
My husband is in the military. If you are involved with the Military, you can guess some of my frustrations. My husband and I got married in December 2009, I have only seem my husband for 5 physical days of our marriage. The whole plan was for me to move where he is based. Which all I'm going to say is in Europe. I was excited. First, I would get to spend everyday with my husband until he deploys for Iraq, which is in 2 months. Second, I would get to travel Europe for 3 years. Well from what someone was saying I would have been able to be there in 2 weeks of us getting married. I thought OK maybe not 2 weeks but maybe a month. I got everything I needed to do, done, I quit my job and moved back to my parents to wait. Yeah, I'm still at my parents. I'm waiting for housing. Apparently there is just so many people looking for housing that I've been sitting around waiting for almost 3 month. Basically we can't get any answers and today we finally set a date to where if I'm not there by then I'm not going to stay just to visit. That date is just over a month away. I am crossing my fingers that a house comes through soon.. Like in a week soon, which I know isn't going to happen and I've almost given up hoping for something. I love my husband so much, I respect everything he and all those men and women are doing for our country. I will support my husband in this till I die, but is it really too much to ask to be able to spend some time with my husband? Is is too much to ask to let us spend a month together. I truly believe if it weren't for the wives and families, these soldiers wouldn't be able to do what they do. I know all the quotes about this. You know the ones.. "if the army wanted to you have a wife and kids they would have issued you one" and "hurry up and wait". But I'm not that patient and I don't believe in the first one. So here I am, waiting. I just can't seem to fathom not seeing my husband off on the day he leaves for deployment. I just can't seem myself here while he's getting on that plane without me there to tell him that I believe in him and come home to me. I know I sound slightly cheesy and young, but that's I am. I knew what I was getting into when I married him, I knew it was a huge sacrifice on my emotions and what I thought marriage was supposed to be like. I just don't think I prepared myself well enough. So it's going to take me a while longer to get over it. I know I will, I just want to wallow in my self pity for a bit.
So in conclusion, can anyone answer me why it's like this? Why can't we get the answers we need, why can't I be with my husband? And off the other why's I can't finding wording for? Well I know not all my post will be like this, but thank you for reading this..