Just here...

I feel like I'm just here! I don't have anyone I can depend on and I need some help. My car battery died, for reasons that I don't want to get into right now, and no one will come help me. It is just ridiculous. And if I ask them it's like I'm pulling there teeth out. There is only one person that I can ask and she hasn't moved her car since it snowed, so yea. It just is really disappointing that it is so hard to feel I like I belong around here. I've tried and tried and I don't know what is wrong with me. Either I'm selfish or they are, I'm not sure. I feel very a lone. Looks like I'm going to be going to the Christmas market by myself because no one ever wants to go. I was going to go tomorrow, but the weather is shitty, so I may go next week some time. Hopefully someone will decide they want to go with me. I really don't want to go alone, but I will if I have too. I just want to see it. I just want to experience it. I know I have next year but I would like to see it. I'm in Germany and haven't done like anything. I would like to see just one stupid Christmas market. Why is everyone so resistant to having a little fun. You don't have to spend a ton of money. Just walk around with me for an hour or so. I want to take advantage of my time here in Germany, but it's really hard to do everything on your own. I'm really sick of feeling so alone. But I will continue to deal with it because I have to.